fredag den 29. juni 2012

I can't...

What a horrible night...
Took me at least three hours to sleep. I saw it again... It still comes back to me once in a while. I wish I could let go. It made my head ache and I'm still sick so I coughed a lot. It was raining like hell... I heard thunder outside and saw the quick flash of thunder through my window. Felt like it was never going to end.

When I finally fell asleep I had a nightmare and woke up choking. I've been exhausted all day.

I guess I can't stop thinking of it because I never talked to anyone about it.
I really should have told someone... But it's too late now.

torsdag den 28. juni 2012

Danish culture at this point made me realize...



That I’ve become so negative.
I think the Danish standard mind is… Negative. Plain negative. I don’t wan to be like that, I will try to change it.
I got to think of it because a complete stranger greeted me this morning. Never seen that person before and he WAS really greeting me. I even looked around to be sure and there were no one else around us. Just a simple ”Good morning”.
I realized that I looked at him as he was some kind of idiot, so I hope I made up for it by smiling when greeting him back. I was just surprised. Very surprised in fact.

In Denmark in general you don’t greet strangers like you do in many other cultures. You barely greet people you know or kinda know and if you do, you won’t be surprised if you get ignored.


I usually greet people but sometimes I don’t know if I should or not because I know they are going to ignore me. I do feel very dumb when I greet someone who ignore me, but it’s the standard here.


I do not think everybody is like this, but I’m 100% sure every Dane know what I’m talking about.

A more extreme example- I saw a show in the beginning of the year called “Hero’s Gala”. It was about people who have made a difference around the world. Some actions were big, others were small but precious.
There were two boys who saved two girls from drowning in a public swimming bath. They were asked in the show if they had any further comments for their action and their reply was: “We only did what everyone else would have done”. Such brave boys, glad there are people like them out there- but the answer is unfortunately incorrect. No one did anything, the girls were even REALLY close to death before they were saved. That is in fact very sad.
If you pass out on a Danish street, have a physical attack, anything like that- you can’t expect anyone to help you. They’re going to act like they don’t notice you or other things like that.
It’s a actually a pretty bad and discussed issue here in Denmark. We all know it’s a big problem and there are lots of novels, songs, poets, etc written about this.
An other example is when I once got into a bus after some procrastinating in the mall. The bus driver smiled at me, welcomed me and wished me a good day. For the first 3 nano seconds I thought “What are you? Which planet do you come from???”. But then I realized that there were just someone polite and forthcoming out there for once. I smiled back and wished him a good day too.
Made me in a better mood. Happy people makes you happy too, eh? Even if it’s a stranger and you only get a bit of it.

We have to put a smile on. That’s how we survive. Right? 

Yesterday

Tumblr: 4 months ago


My singing teacher taught me something important.
When we’re having a hard time and talk to other people about it, we’ve all tried to get the comment back saying “there are people out there feeling much worse than you”.
Ok, before I’m getting to my point, I’d like to say that this depends on your situation.

She asked me if I was ok and that I looked frustrated. I told her I had a hard time because of some issues and it made me forget to practice singing a lot “but I shouldn’t complain because I’m only a student and there are people out there feeling worse than me”. My words were honest, but I only added that comment because I didn’t want to hear it from her.
Instead she said “It’s ok you find it tough. There might be people out there who are having a harder time than you, but you must think about where you are now and what your situation is. What’s tough for you might not be tough for others but if they don’t think your issues are a big deal, it doesn’t mean they have the right to criticize you for it. It’s selfish, but it doesn’t make you careless”.I’ve never really thought about it that way. I just don’t want to be selfish, but I will remember this.


Since my English isn’t brilliant, I do not know if I expressed myself right, but I hope so. 

Tomboys and feminine guys




Tumblr: 4 months ago

I highly dislike how people are put into the either “masculine” or “feminine” box.

I don’t get why we just can’t break the standards and realize that it doesn’t matter, and you can be exactly how you want to. We live in the 21st century after all.

My parents let me be what I want to, unless it will hurt others or myself, I don’t get why people just can’t stick with that, instead of living in fear of not doing the so-called right thing and fit in.

I can’t talk to most people about gender standards coz they don’t get what I’m saying… lol.

One of the things that piss me off is:

People like Amber Liu is called a “boy/tomboy/masculine” and bla bla so on. We hear it ALL THE TIME. Constantly. People will never stop mentioning it. But what if she was a boy? - You would say she looked like a girl. I’m 100% sure it would have been so.

Also Justin Bieber. I’m tired of hearing people saying he looks like a girl, coz if he was a girl he would be “such a man” to most of you.

There are a LOT more people in the same boat. Especially several male k-pop stars. I’m totally sick of it. Accept them for what they are!!! Not something they obviously aren’t.

That’s it. My rant is over, lol.

Life?


It’s fun how many people complain about not having a life.
I personally think people who say so, have more life than some others coz those who truly don’t would never admit it.

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Just posting my tumblr rants because I think it belongs to this blog instead.

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I'm one of those people who have this twisted need to post inner thoughts on the internet.
Therefore, I don't really care who reads it and I don't care if you give a shit about my posts or not.
Harshly said, but that's how it is.

This blog is only made for selfish purposes.